Friday, February 27, 2009
Finding my "GIFT"
My first time at this so bare with me. I have spent alot of time trying to find my "GIFT". You know in the church I wanted it to be that I could sing well no such luck. I have watched lots of women in the church and idenfied theirs and I came to realize I just don't have one. So I thought will just find one in someone else that I can learn to do. Which brings me to tell Brian your comment on LeEllen's blog hit it right.They are who I want to be when I grow up also. When I started back to church I was very insecure about being there. I did not feel I should be there because of the things I had done and had been gone for so long.I actually would walk in and try to go straight to a seat so maybe nobody would say to much to me. Well Troy Church Of Christ is the wrong place to try that. Now this is all theory but I think I have The Smiths figured out I think they watch and look for the people who need help. The reason I say this is because every time I turned around there she was. She was inviting me to stay for the youth stuff at church and at her house she was right along beside me the whole time my first trip to Celebration. And before you knew it I was no longer a visitor I was a member. It was not me looking to find someone to go sit with people were looking for me I had a purpose I was needed and along about the same time I was feeling all this new found confidence I noticed she was not around as much. Well turns out I think she figured her task with me was complete and she had moved on to someone who needed her more. Which turns out is exactly how I let myself become a part of this family all I really wanted was to be needed. I have made a vow I will stop trying to find my gift and just make up one I will watch for people who look insecure about being at church and I will talk to them and go sit with them.Anyway how hard is it to sit with somebody I can be good at that I think maybe even great. Thank you so much for all you have done. Turns out I have let you know you have another "GIFT" besides you sing like butter melting,teacher, leader, friend we could go on. I just want you to know I am stealing one. Traci Orr
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Traci,
I agree with everything you said about LeEllen. She and Jimmy are awesome, but I have to comment for a minute on you. My daughter worships the ground that you walk on. EverySunday, it's Miss Traci this and Miss Traci that. You do have a gift with children that I don't even think you realize. I see it when you are with Jude as well. You were such a good role model at winterfest as well, and I bet you didn't even know it. Those girls look up to you, and you set a fine example to them. I know how it is to come back and feel wanted and needed. I think that is part of us being human, but girl you are wanted and needed, and you do have gifts!! Don't think any different! Don't make me get Cameryn on you.
Usually when I receive such a moving tribute as yours, Traci, I am inclined to make some self-depreciating remark to prove my inner humility. Well, most know humility is actually quite hard for me and so instead of doing that, I'm going to just say with as much tender appreciation as I can offer, thank you. You have blessed by day and I expect my whole month by the kind things you have said. Like Brian I am also a huge fan of yours and am constantly seeing God work in you. I love you, sister.
Usually when I receive such a moving tribute as yours, Traci, I am inclined to make some self-depreciating remark to prove my inner humility. Well, most know humility is actually quite hard for me and so instead of doing that, I'm going to just say with as much tender appreciation as I can offer, thank you. You have blessed by day and I expect my whole month by the kind things you have said. Like Brian I am also a huge fan of yours and am constantly seeing God work in you. I love you, sister.
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